A Glass of SuSu a Day Keeps The Doc Away

A dissapointment

2007-02-27T18:49:00.000-05:00

Okay, so maybe today I was told indirectly that I wasn't good enough to be part of a research project. Who cares right? I know I'm competent, and intelligent, and strong, and motivated, and all the good stuff. I can take care of myself. I don't need to beg to be involved in the research project. If you don't want me, it's okay, I can fend for myself. Only thing is...

It DOES matter. It's a blow to my self-esteem. It's making me start to doubt my competence. Am I not smart enough? Why? How? What did I do to make you think so? Why am I not good enough for you? Is it because my GRE scores are not above average? Or because I don't speak over others in class? Or because I'm shy or timid when compared to others? Is that why you're judging me as not good enough?

In my whole 22 years, I've never been told, directly or indirectly that I'm not smart enough. I've been told some horrendous stuff, believe me, but never I'm not smart enough. Someone even old me once that I'm wasting my talent on psychology. I could do better in the science and technology field. Never not smart enough. Sighhh....it hurts.

I'm definitely drinking on Friday. Anna and MG....wait for meeeeeeee

Preposterous

2007-02-03T12:26:00.000-05:00

Things that never fail to amaze me:
1) how certain people can consistently talk only about how other people have mistreated them, how they're immature, childish, mean, evil-hearted, below you and not realize that maybe it is something about themselves that led them to ALWAYS see things this way
2) how some can proudly declare how mean they were in their high school
3) how some can proudly declare that they used to be so arrogant last time and that they've toned it down, and think that that's not really a problem with their attitude
4) how some can be so certain and sure about things that they believe or heard of, and never ever question themselves if there might be different ways of viewing or doings things out there that might be just as effective and right and will not accept others' opinions
5) how some always think they're right, that everything they own is of top quality, the way they do things is the best way, and always always try to teach others to do it like them, but when questioned, deny and say i'm just telling you my opinion

*rolling my eyes*

:))) Okay, been frustrating past 2 days. Picture time though....hehehehe

The idiot that is smiling like a donkey=me :) Seng lee smelled something funny! hahaha

Scientific Jargons

2007-01-24T23:39:00.000-05:00

This was compiled by a researcher after years and years of working in academia. It's funny!

"After several years of studying and hard work, I have finally learnt scientific jargon. The following list of phrases and definitions will help you understand that mysterious language of science and medicine." - Dyrk Schingman-

"It has long been known..."
Actual: I didn't look up the original reference

"While it has not been possible to provide definite answers to the questions..."
Actual: An unsuccessful experiment, but I still hope to get it published

"Three of the samples were chosen for detailed study..."
Actual: The other results didn't make any sense

"The most reliable results are obtained by Jones..."
Actual: He was my graduate student, his grade depended on this

"In my experience..."
Actual: Once

"In case after case..."
Actual: Twice

"In a series of cases..."
Actual: Thrice

"It is believed that..."
Actual: I think

"Correct within an order of magnitude..."
Actual: Wrong

"According to statistical analysis..."
Actual: Rumor has it...

"A statistically-oriented projection of the significance of these findings..."
Actual: A wild guess

"A careful analysis of obtainable data..."
Actual: Three pages of notes were obliterated when I knocked over a glass of beer

"It is clear that much additional work will be required before a complete understanding of this phenomena occurs..."
Actual: I don't understand it...

"After additional study by my colleagues"
Actual: They don't understand it either

"Thanks are due to Joe Blotz for assistance with the experiment and Andrea Schaeffer for valuable discussions"
Actual: Mr. Boltz did the work and Ms. Schaeffer explained to me what it meant

Hilarious! Dr. Mohammed distributed it in class to us. She warned us that if we used any of these phrases in our papers, she would know what it meant. Sigh....gone are the easy days :P

Today in class, we were talking about the injustice of punishments handed out to workers with lower status as compared to workers in higher level positions, and Dr. Murphy said that it is one of the motivations for lower-status workers to work harder in order to move up the career ladder. That is also why WE actually go through the arduous process of attending graduate school just in order to improve our status once we enter the workforce, e.g. to get an increase in pay levels as opposed to what someone would get if they went straight into the workforce after a bachelors. THEN, we realized that we were the MONKEYS because we actually are the ones that are getting lower pay once we get into grad school....UNDER the poverty level....SIGHHHHH

The tale of 2 chimpanzees Part I

2006-11-28T18:10:00.000-05:00

Okay, I know many of you all have demanded for an update, so here it is. Sorry for the LONGGG delay. The past few weeks have been c-r-a-z-e-e for me. The workload is piling up and it hasn't been the smoothest weeks so far, but I survived and am surviving with the impending increasing height of my workload :P Although I have to say I am touched that some people still follow my blog regardless of the intermittent entries :)

I know many people out there think that once you get to college, you should be matured enough to tolerate people of all kinds, races, nationalities, etc. And I believe that to my very soul. I like to learn about other cultures. BUT when it comes to diversity in terms of personalities with housemates, that's a whole other issue. I have to say (actually prefer to shout out loud to vent my frustration):

I AM SUPER ANNOYED BY MY HOUSEMATES!

I have tried to tolerate them, really really tried. After all, I took it for a few months without saying anything. Sorry for those of you out there who believe that it's rude and insensitive to complain about another living person *rolling my eyes* but I don't care, because I am ultra annoyed.

When I first moved in, I thought these people were decent. I should really clarify that these housemates that I am annoyed at are actually 2 of them, one I will name Opera and the other Oprah. Not a misspelling. Don't worry. Okay, since I thought they were decent, I tried hanging out with them, going out for dinners, etc. But then, it got to a point where I realized our personalities clash. I don't agree with most of the things these 2 people say, they think they know it all. Evidenced by the fact that their favorite phrase is "I know...". Everything you say to them, their response is "I know...". ARGH

Opera
She's the artistic and musical one apparently. Her major is MUSIC HISTORY. I think she has no communicative skill whatsoever because when you talk to her, on top of saying "I know" all the time, she often adds bits and schmitses of music facts of the day which leaves me confused, because god knows I'm dumb to not know what "bla bla C minor piece in bla bla was so bla bla". Annoying! At first, it's not so bad, but after interacting with her everyday it got too much to handle. So i decided to cut my interaction with her to a minimum. I am still civil to her, smiling and saying hie to her when I meet her, but will avoid anything more than that. However, one thing she loves to do in addition to brag is TALK TALK TALK TALK on the phone. Our walls are so THIN!!! PLEASEEEEE.....do you not realize that???????? She talks on the phone at night, in the morning, in the afternoon. AND she complains to me about not having enough time to do anything, that she used to sleep only 2 hours a day, that music is so hard. Now I wonder why you only had 2 hours sleep daily???? Don't need rocket science to answer that question.

So she talks till 2 or 3 something AM with her high-pitched voice, giggling and speaking with her "I'm so important and classy" accent. I get headaches almost daily....trying to tune out her voice and sleep. MIss....please....I know you have to talk but I have to sleep! I sleep at 2 something every night, wake up at 7 or 8 every morning, am out the whole day....please spare me! It's not different during the weekends too....she talks non stop or brings people back to the apartment without considering if her apartment mates are okay with that, and they talk till like wee hours. ARGH.

Once, she even did her laundry at 4 something am in the morning. And the laundry machines are right in front of my door! And she was talking on the phone again....walking up and down my door. What happened to common sense? I mean if she was nice, it wouldn't be that bad, but she's not.

I just can't stop but give a list of reasons why I think she's quite snobby:

1) she shops only at wegman's because they have been voted best place to work for for a couple of times...never at walmart because they're the beast in the industry. okay, i know they're a beast, but when it comes to desperate times, especially when you're a poor graduate student, what can you do?
2) she told me that she used to live in Rome with her grandparents for a year, going on and on about the food, etc. And she likes to cook only Italian food, using high-class ingredients and following cookbooks. However, I recently found out because she finally explained that "oh...did I forget to mention to you? I meant Rome as in Rome, upstate New York". I am like....whattttt!~!~ You went on and on for a few months, obviously realizing that people would think Rome, Italy but you've actually never spent time there?? What a pretender. And, when she cooks, bringing her branded pots and pans out from her room e.g. Cuisinart, Kitchen Aid, Le Creuset etc. She places them all around the kitchen and living room, occupying so much space that no one will be able to use the kitchen when she does, and takes the entire night cooking. Trust me, CHIA was there and witnessed it. And she cuts one lettuce leaf at a time. ONE AT A TIME. ARGHHH
3) she only listens to opera and classical music. she thinks the latest music trends are disgusting.
4) she doesn't believe in sweat shops. honestly, i don't know where I stand in the whole sweatshop issue but i am realistic in that no one can avoid purchasing an item that was made in a sweatshop. however, Opera apparently lives in fantasyland. she once tried to discourage my other housemate to buy a sweater that had a label stating "made in vietnam" from Macy's. so, its either she's a hypocrite and have clothes that were made in sweatshops like everyone else OR is very very rich and buys tailormade clothes or haute couture. yeah right.

finally, i've done many things for the apartment. i bought a lot of stuff when we first moved in. And i am the only one keeping up with the cleaning schedule. no one tries to clean the floors, vacuum or anything! dishes are left in the sink piled up high and you can literally see hairballs on the floor. so today, i thought that was enough waiting around for them to help out. i went to get the vacuum to clean this evening. BUt, one housemate was eating in the kitchen when I got back. So out of respect, i decided not to vacuum yet. then, when i wanted to vacuum later on, another housemate came back and started eating (and it's like at 5 in the evening). Then Opera came back with a friend to have pie and tea *rolling eyes*...seriously... So, i decided, I'm not gonna sit around waiting for them to clear away to start vacuuming. so i vacuumed the bathroom and the laundry area, my bedroom and the living room. throughout the time i was vacuuming, the three of them were chit-chatting completely ignoring the fact that I was cleaning, didn't even offer to help or feel guilty. so i asked them if they were going to be around for long, and they were like...urm we're just going to eat something now. so i was like...fine i'll come back later to vacuum. and they were not even apologetic, they were like oh i thought you're usually not around this time of the day. YEA YOU"RE RIGHT! because I'm usually in my office working but because I know how dirty the place is i came back just to clean but you guys are getting in the way of it!!!

aaah.....annoying!!! okay...i know this has been a really long post whiny and all....but i just had to let it out. i know i haven't touched on Oprah yet....but there'll be a Part II. :) they're out there right now having dainty tea and intellectual talks. :PPPPPPP

Life is Tough

2006-10-17T20:51:00.000-04:00

After almost 2 months in Happy Valley (I've learnt that the name only applies to certain groups of people), I'm starting to stress out BIG time about my ability to continue in grad school for 5 years. Things are ambiguous, and I have so many things to concentrate on at one time. But, I've also learnt the importance of giving and receiving support from your peers, how it warms you up inside when someone else notices your opinions and comments and gives you good feedback on it.

Every Monday 8.45 to 11.45am, I have Personnel Selection and Appraisals Seminar. What we do is read in advance and come to class prepared to discuss the material and related topics for 3 hours. This I feel is the hardest class I've ever taken in my education career. I struggle every week to force myself to speak in class, to talk about validity tests, about measurement issues, error in sampling etc (basically things i know very little about). Participation in class is a freaking 40% of my grade. WTF. So I HAVE TO HAVE TO speak up.

Anyone who knows me knows I have difficulty voicing my thoughts in public. Even though most of the time what I have to say is relevant and correct. But I'm usually too intimidated to say it. So you can imagine how hard it is for me in this class in front of a professor who is FAMOUS in the field and 11 other intelligent students.

But I'm getting better at it though, partly because I'm getting used to speaking and partly because everytime we first years speak up, we first years will support each other. We know we're the under-ducklings. It feels so good, to see heads nodding when you're giving an opinion (trying to be coherent and intelligent-sounding at the same time). SO GOOD! You feel for few seconds that HEY i'm not that stupid...maybe someone thinks its a good idea. And most of the time, Anne will be the one nodding. THANK you!! And she tries to help me explain my thoughts too at times when my professor doesn't get it. *rolls my eyes*

So...because I know how important it is to hear encouraging words sometimes, I would like to give some words of encouragement to my friends and those who read my blog:

Chia: Just 2 more years and you can get the hell out of that company to somewhere you'll be more interested in!

AnnA: Good luck in your job search! I know you can do it.

SEAN: you are one of the most optimistic person I've met. your optimism will take you places :)

MG: Just finish your PHD!!!!

Irene: You will score so high in your GREs you'll be surprised at the rate you're studying

CK: appreciate what you have now *wink*

:)

Damn "Bandar"

2006-10-11T19:50:00.000-04:00

Richards, J. C., & Tay, M. J. (1977). The la particle in Singapore English. In W. Crewe (Ed.), The English language in Singapore (pp. 14 1-156). Singapore: Eastern Universities Press.

The above reference was taken from an article about sexual harassment perception among different ethnic groups in Singapore. LOL. Someone actually studied the la particle in Singlish???? How funny is that??? HahAHAHhahahHHAHah

okay, maybe i'm a nerd after all. :p

Ooohhh and on a side note, I went apple-picking last Sunday with Chia. Fun FUn! We went to Stribling Orchard, just a 40 min drive out of Manassas. We were like super city-sleekers man when we arrived. We didn't know what to do! Were we supposed to bring baskets? How do we pick the apples? With our hands? Must we climb the trees? Where to go??? Aarghhh....the trees look scaryyyyyyyyy!!!! Hahaha. INSECTSSSS get OFF me!!!

But after the initial awkwardness, it was actually fun. how i wished I had an apple orchard or for that matter, any orchard to run and play when i was younger. chia, hahahaha on the other hand never managed to get over his dislike for the trees and grassss and muddddd!

and i was like a little kid in a candy store at the orchard's shop. i bought apple cider, sparkling apple cider, pear jam. i would have bought more if it wasn't for chia standing around looking bored. hmmph. but the cider is yummyyyyy! and the pear jam too. :)))))

i showed this video clip to one of my friends and he said it sounds like a Malaysian Creed. Hmmph...i don't think so!

Disagree - Crumbs

Systolic: 100

2006-10-01T22:26:00.000-04:00

Geramnyaaaa............

I'm destined to meet people that will test my patience. DESTINED. What with classes, Ta-ing, research meetings, grading, etc i really really cannot afford to deal with this right now :( You out there, stop ordering me around! I'm not your servant....phei yuan even said i looked so submissive around her....WHY OH WHY DO I LET HER DO THAT TO ME????

Sighhhhhh

I'm sufferring from imposter syndrome. They made a mistake with the application! I'm not supposed to be here, I don't belong here. I just sit in a corner pretending to understand the concepts that they articulate so well. ARGH. Stresssnyaaaa.....i dunno how to come up with a new way of validating a selection procedure? How am I supposed to know? If it's that easy, experienced researchers would have thought of it by now!!! and Gnuplot...DAMN YOU. I have to do coding for my stats class. C-O-D-I-N-G. Can you imagine me doing coding???? Suchuen doing coding? Unbelievable. Haha

Blood pressure naik :( hit a record high of 100. never ever in my life have i reached a 100. my seniors welcomed me to grad school after hearing about it. Sorry about the depressed entry....SUM Of my life after 4 weeks here. Gone are the initial highs and now the lows start creeping in like a lapping wave...

Sleeping Beauty

2006-09-20T17:29:00.000-04:00

We are losing grip on the string that pulls us together
I can't seem to get to you
An invisible wall stands between us
You are the Sleeping Beauty
Call out when you awake from your slumber

Heh?

2006-09-12T18:57:00.000-04:00

I will never forget what a guy asked/stated to me at Hanna's (a grad student) birthday party....

"Your bra-strap is transparent. Is the rest of your bra transparent too?"

I couldn't say anything for a few seconds. Didn't know if I was gonna laugh out loud, be offended or just pretend like it's no big deal. Apa ini?? Hahahaa. Was that supposed to be a pick-up line? Honestly, I didn't realize how ridiculous his statement was until I got back to my apartment. WHat was that supposed to mean?!?!?!?!

Guess what I (the really blur and lame) replied? "Urm....many girls have these straps too." I wish a hole would open and swallow me wholeeeeeeeeeeee.....:P

234 Miles

2006-09-06T11:37:00.000-04:00

234 miles away from Chia
13,000++ miles away from my friends and family
575 miles away from Anna and MG at Purdue
2700+ miles away from Sean in Cali

Sigh...I'm so far away from everyone. :P Sometimes feel kinda lonely.

On a lighter note, I did my first ever TA class yesterday. It's definitely a new experience standing from a teaching assistant's view then as a student. I HAVE THE POWERRRR. YAYYY. All you sorority and fraternity students better watch out. Better suck up to me or I'll fail you. Kekekeke. Nahhh...why would I do that? I'm sooo nice. hahahaha Yeah right.

How Malaysian Are You??

2006-08-28T14:20:00.000-04:00

I'm stealing this survey from Dawn's blog: How Malaysian are you? :P It was actually administered by the Star Online. It's a mini-questionnaire on how malaysian you are based on your actions and knowledge about happenings in the country.

Apparently (hmmph....) I'm only like 50% malaysian. WHY WHY WHY????

I SOOOO want to be more Malaysian. Kekekeke. When asked where I'm from I say I'm from Malaysia, not japan not korea. :( I don't speak much BM. When in Malaysia, I try to smile at random ppl on the streets. I wouldn't attempt to bribe a policeman if I could. I don't criticize the government like there's no tomorrow. I sing praises about the level of civic-consciousness among Malaysians. I don't spit. I don't park illegally. I don't jump line and pretend like I didn't know what I just did. I'm an average Malaysian. Really I am! (or isit?)

It's just weird how once you get to overseas, you suddenly become more patriotic in terms of identifying yourself as Malaysian. Suddenly you realize you're Malaysian Chinese and not just Chinese.

Happy Valley

2006-08-27T11:08:00.000-04:00

Now I know why it's called Happy Valley. Everyone is Happy Happy. Hahaha. Everywhere you go, people smile at you. Even if they know you're an international student, they still smile at you. And when you're lost and ask for directions, they patiently tell you or give suggestions to you. Maybe mountain people are just friendlier???? Hmmph....

And guess what? Penn State has its own creamery! Yum yummm. We make our own ice-cream and it's famous! The milk from the cow is transformed into creamy ice-cream within 40 hours apparently. And the founders of Ben & Jerry came here to learn how to make ice-cream!!!! But they got a C or so I heard. hahaha.

Penn State's downtown is so quaint. There are boutiques, second-hand bookstores, cafes and even mainstream abercrombie & fitch. And I found a japanese restaurant that serves cheap and delicious sushi. Kekeke.

So all in all, my first week or two in Happy Valley has been above expectations. Hahahah. :)

Masons Keepe, Manassas, Virginia, United States

2006-08-18T10:32:00.000-04:00

Let me introduce to you Mei Xiang, resident panda bear of Washington D.C.'s zoo. Cute eh?? It looks like she's merajuking. Hahaha.

It was awesome visiting the zoo. I think it's been 10 years since I've gone to one. I loveeeee animals. Let me show you the other animals I saw....

Mrs. King Kong is showing signs of hostility towards visitors of the zoo :( Perhaps she had a quarrel with Mr. King Kong.

Besides the zoo, me and Chia also visited the Holocaust Museum, recording the history of Jews sufferings. If anyone weren't sympathetic about the Jews' lifecourse, they will be once they've seen this museum. Because my attention lifespan for museums lasts only about 1 hour-1 1/2 hours, we were only able to see half of what was offerred. I'm definitely going back to finish it. :P

I FINALLY walked past the WhiteHouse. Apparently, there are snipers everywhere around the WhiteHouse to protect the dearest President. DanG! I couldn't accomplish my mission of throwing rotten eggs at the WhiteHouse. Didn't want to end my life right there and then! It would be such a waste. Hahaha. Chia was super paranoid about our every movement. So afraid that we would get hit if we acted in any way suspicious. Kekeke

And I saw the reflecting pool and Lincoln's Memorial! The film location of one of the scenes in Forrest Gump. Okay okay I'm sure the memorial has more significance than a film location but all I know is the building's meant to commemorate the respected Abraham Lincoln. Too bad the memorial was located above a hill and in order to reach it I would have to climb god knows how many steps. I decided to forego actually seeing the statue of Mr. Lincoln. :( My legs hurt after traipsing around D.C. the whole afternoon.

P.S.: I finally got my Apple laptop! YAY! Now I've got to figure out how to use it. :))))

P.P.S.: I love chia's new apartment. SOSOSOSOSO much more luxurious than any of Purdue's apartment I've been to. This area called Fairfax is supposedly a wealthy place. Lots and lots of mansions and Merz and BMWs and Infinitis. Sighhh...me poor poor student.

Bumpy Ride

2006-08-12T10:18:00.000-04:00

HauVoon, Jess, Irene, Me, Hsiao and Alvin at Starbucks playing Taboo for me last time!!

I'm finally back in the U.S. after what seemed like an eternity of never-ending flights and transits. This has not been a smooth journey back let me tell you. A summary of my adventure is highly due:

1 1/2 hours of flight from Penang-Singapore on Wednesday night
1 1/2 hours of transit at Changi airport
13 hours of flight from Singapore to Frankfurt
2 hours transit at Frankfurt airport
8 hours of flight from Frankfurt to New York
2 hours of hurried madness to check-in in time for my domestic flight
2 hours of delay at JFK airport due to apparently imminent terrorist attack *rolling my eyes*
stripped off all my toiletries and liquids
2 hours of flight from New York to Washington D.C.
1 hour of confusion about the whereabouts of my luggage which in the end arrived only on the following day
40 mins of taxi ride to Chia's apartment

Sighhhhh....Boy did I really need a shower by the end of my journey. I've never seen so many babies and toddlers in a single flight before. There was a toddler in front of me on the SIA flight, one behind me (kicking relentlessly the whole time-why doesn't the mother try to stop him?!?!), and two on my right. My backpack stank of baby poo at the end of my flight. Sighhhh again. I was praying hopelessly that the person behind me wouldn't detect the distinctive smell of poo poo.

At the imigration counter, there was only ONE security officer to check all of us visitors in. ONE OFFICER. But there were like five counters open for U.S. citizens. Wow...why doesn't the U.S. government just issue an official statement about how much they welcome foreigners.

This whole incident seems like a nightmare to me. I think I was too tired to react to them taking away my toiletries. I was emotionally monotonous. If only I had arrived one day earlier, one day and this would not have happened. Arghhh! Then again, if I had left one day later, I wouldn't be allowed any hand-carry at all and I don't think I'll survive a 1 1/2 day journey without my hand-carry. :)

On a lighter note, guess what happened in the flight to U.S.

Me: Hie! Can I have a glass of white wine please? (to warm me cold body up)
Air-hostess: *looks puzzled* Okay sure.
Air-hostess: Urm...we do not have a drinking age but we would advise those below 21 not to drink at all.
Me: Huh?? But I'm 22!
Air-hostess: Oh...I'm sorry! That's a compliment actually.
Me: Isit really??? I find it quite insulting. Hmmph.

Yippee do deyyy yippee do daaa

2006-08-06T23:10:00.000-04:00

I got a digicam! I got a digicam! :))) I'll be able to post many many more pics from now onwards.

This is me....horrible eh? Haha. Me at my most candid! Courtesy of my bro. Hmmph.

I'll be flying off 2 days from now. In some ways I'm excited to start a new life in a different university but I'll be missing my family and friends too. Sayonara to tasty foooood. Oh my beloved char koey teow, we will see each other again I'm sure. Sayonara to cheap shoes. I'll have to do with the pairs I have for the next few months. Sayonara to my comfy bed, to hitz.fm....

Oh but glad I am to get rid of Penang traffic. CRAZY CRAZY drivers. I will never understand why we drive the way we do. Only in Penang can you find motorcycles riding in the opposite direction of the lane. sighhhh developed nation konon.

I've been thinking...

2006-07-27T14:15:00.000-04:00

How do you know if what you have is friendship in its true meaning, or just hangout buddies?

Do you consider someone you hit the bars with every Friday night a friend?
Or someone you don't see and talk for most of the year, but spent time together in the summer holidays?
How about someone who puts you down everytime you talk to him/her but you still try to talk in hopes that eventually he/she will get tired of it?
Your housemates?
Someone whom you spend alot of time with but you don't feel comfortable with?

I know people change, but could they give me the orange light first before turning to red? Sigh...

This song is great for a post-night out, when you reach home in the wee hours of the morn. :) Thanks Chia for recommending it!

Empty Streets by Late Night Alumni remixed by Tiesto

Backwoods Men

2006-07-25T01:50:00.000-04:00

Here are some of the answers given by 4 randomly chosen men to the question "What do you envy most about married men?" posed by Cleo Magazine:

That they are more stable financially, and can focus on their job as all the necessities are taken care off - Mr. B. Ibrahim, 19

They have someone to share everything with. They have a wife who can cook and do the laundry - Mr. B. Bakhri, 20

That they've someone who'll care for them when they fall sick and love them no matter how ugly they look - Mr. Subramaniam. 31

Their lives are taken care of by their wives. It also seems they are happier, more matured and rational - Mr. Chai, 21

Now why do I find something inherently wrong in their comments? Hmm...let me see...is it just me or hasn't the world progressed in terms of equality between the sexes? I have just the answers to slap them back with...

Mr B Ibrahim, men marry only after they become financially stable. Being married doesn't make them suddenly rich! And who's the one that'll be taking care of all the necessities? Your nanny?

Mr B Bakhri, your maid can also do the cooking and laundry. Will you dispose off your wife once you get a maid?

Mr Subramaniam, Kudos! One of the better answers...yet do you really marry only to get security from being considered ugly?

Mr Chai, what do you mean by their lives are taken care of by their wives? Do you mean wash your undies, feed you, go to work for you, brush your teeth for you? *rolls my eyes*

Where did CLEO find these boys? Honestly!

PS: One of the first trance songs I listened to that I liked! Brings back memories of my first ever Chicago trip with Dawn, Marcus, Chia etc. Oh the constant replaying of this song in our rented mobile coffin (PT Cruiser)!

Ecstasy by ATB

Developed nation by 2020? I don't think so.

2006-07-22T23:16:00.000-04:00

I thought we were pass overt racism and have moved on to the subtler versions -- but I guess not. It's so surprising to hear about the recent act of bully by 50 Malay students against 7 Chinese fellow students at UPM is saddening, but to watch it in action is shocking. For those who don't know what I'm talking about, take a look at TheStarOnline .

It's ridiculous to think that a deputy vice-chancellor of UPM blames this incident on pumping adrenalines after a rugby game. If that's excusable, I guess it would be alright for anyone after a tennis game or a football match to go charging against the first person they see like a bull seeing red. Kudos to the person who acted quick enough to capture this incident!

I wonder what the government's next steps would be? Take some serious action against the wrong-doers and maybe look at the bigger picture of racial harmony or is this going to be a repeat of the prison guards' bullying incident?

Tranceism

2006-07-19T23:39:00.000-04:00

I used to hate trance. The loud bass thumping persistently, nonstop was SO annoying. I mean who in the world likes monotonous consistent beats without any vocals? And what's more, I had Darling, MG, James and Sean bobbing their heads along to Tiesto, Armin, etc almost every night during dinner! URGH. I couldn't get how Chia could listen to trance while studying -- I could hear the bass even with his headphones on. But how funny and ironic is it that I'm missing trance now when I'm in Penang. I think all the rave parties I've been dragged to is finally working. I'm a convert! Not really the hard-core trance lover yet, but I'm starting on vocal trance. :) I think the video below should be a good start for all trance beginners. It's Andain-Beautiful Things :)

PS: I'm dead-set on converting you CK!

22 is bittersweet

2006-07-19T01:11:00.000-04:00

I can't believe I've been out of high school for almost 5 years! It's 5 YEARS since I last wore my Rangers uniform, since I wrote on a Buku Latihan, 5 years since I lined up in an assembly hall, since I washed my school shoes and painted it white, and 5 years since I attended tuition classes. Aah...those were the days. Everything was clear and simple - straightforward. If you do your homework, attend tuition classes and study, you'll pass with flying colours.

I still remember how Mrs. Tan a.k.a. katod used to torture us with her version of "hangman" - what's another word for deep? starts with p ends with d has 9 letters bla bla. And how she would yell at us all if we didn't have our English dictionary at the upper corner of our table ready to be whipped open whenever she commands. Oh god...it sounds so funny now how we'd obey like a pack of donkeys! hahaha And Miss Ang! Where should I begin? How she'd go on and on about the cheesecakes she'd received in the past from 5 Science 1s. *rolling my eyes* Good old times...good old times. :)

PS: Ck, Jess, Seong Hong, May -- you guys reminded me yesterday of how innocent and blissful high school was! Going to class, going to tuition, paying attention or NOT paying attention, ogling girls or boys in tuition centers, lepaking during PJ, worrying about the next test or homework or camp...Aaah wished sometimes I didn't have to grow up! :)

Anddd I'll conclude my old lady's nagging with a dose of really cool trance from deep dish...

Can your brain rot due to boredom?

2006-07-15T08:52:00.000-04:00

To prove to you how bored I really am I'll admit this -- I'm rereading Harry Potter The Order of the Phoenix again right after I've read the whole book and also Harry Potter The Half-Blood Prince since I got back.

Seriously, the government should work on making books more available for the wider public. And I'm talking not only about the availability but also the variety of books. I've tried looking for Marian Keyes and Sophie Kinsella in our Penang public library to no avail. Thus, I'm taking a guess that they won't have The Last Templar nor I am Charlotte Simmons. I'm not really into books that are the profound and life-reflecting sort but those that are good for an afternoon at home while sipping coffee. Buying books is of course out of the question since one costs like 35 ringgit on average. How can I, an unemployed whose butt is glued to the couch everyday fork out that much every week? :P sigh

I can't wait to fly back to US and explore my new town's public library. West Lafayette's (home to Purdue University) library was awesome! Double-story building with floor-to-ceiling glass windows, carpeted reading rooms with big, comfy couches, Macintosh for anyone's usage and clean bathrooms. They even have DVDs! Sigh...I need a new activity. Suggestions?

Minus One Kaki

2006-07-15T01:13:00.000-04:00

Bye Yi JUn!! Have a safe trip back all the way to "Palmy" (is that how you spell it?)! Just promise me one thing -- continue being as crazy as you are. Haha. I'll be missing one partner in crime roaming the night scenes. And this song below is dedicated to you...(reminds me of you keke)

PS: Sorry but the video isn't 0ut yet! :)

PPS: Glo's DJ really should start playing some newer songs and once and for all, learn how to mix. *rolling my eyes*

Moving House

2006-07-13T23:38:00.000-04:00

Welcome to my new blog! I've decided to change it to blogspot because it looks fun to try a different host for a while and for many other numerous minute reasons. So all those of you who do link to my blog, please change the URL to suchuen.blogspot.com! Ooohh now I'm really trying to learn how to rearrange my blog's template from scratch. So be patient yea!

Oh by the way, I might sound like some pompous arrogant ass to call myself princess susu but I don't care! Susu is used because my old ancient friends used to call me susu and princess susu because it sounds cute. Not that I think of myself as royalty. You'll know if you continue reading my blog that I'm actually very very down-to-earth. :)